Today I am back. Not to my best physically but mentally I’m back. Back on top of this, back with positivity, back to show MS that you can’t keep me down.

I’ve become like a phone. I’m ok-ish but I need charging so It’s still happening, I’d say I’m on roughly 43% so I’m getting there!

After a day surrounded by family and another day in bed I finally feel like I can take this all on again.

The meat I had to cook over the weekend has been wasted. Chinese last night was worth it though, I suppose indulgence once and a while isn’t too bad.

I lay here now and I will continue to lay and wait until my legs build up the strength to get me up from here. But for now they just need to rest.

I think everyone thinks I’m lazy but this weekend I just don’t care! I mean I care that I’m not being helpful or fun but even though they don’t get it, I know I need this.

It has been a cold, miserable, rainy/snowy weekend. There hasn’t been any sun, just long grey days and then darkness. So I was okay to write this weekend off to be honest. And actually it hasn’t been productive but it’s been good.

Enjoy the rest of your Sunday.

Kim x x

It won’t keep me down.

It won’t keep me down.

Life has got to me this week. As much as I strive to be positive always for everyone, this week has just exhausted me of every piece of effort and positivity I had left.

Why is being a mum so much harder now? I never had these problems before when MS wasn’t in my life. Now I feel inadequate for my two year old. The stresses this brings me is just making the MS bother me more. How do I snap back out of this???

I love my kids with every ounce of me but this week I just need time off, unfortunately for me you don’t get a day off from parenthood. I just want to wake up tomorrow and feel normal again.

It’s so hard with MS. It’s never got me mentally before. Why now?? I am assured by the fact I can write to relieve me of the stress.

I am too positive for this to keep me down I just need energy to find the positivity.

So right now I’m signing out for a couple days to get my mind back on track!!

Have a nice weekend. Kim x x

Liebster Award (2018)

Liebster Award (2018)

Thank you elisgraci, Simply G for nominating me for this award. These blogs are always a beautiful read. So deep and so filled with emotion, mainly in the form of poetry and thorough photos. I feel blessed to have come across these blogs. The link is grvam.wordpress.com please do have a look.  My blog was created to help me through a difficult time. I’m dealing with living with MS and I have 2 children. I try my hardest to remain positive. My blog is like my diary, I write to let my emotions out and hopefully keep people positive. So these awards help keep spirits up and I am so grateful. 

Rules For Accepting It:
 • Write about it on your blog and thank the person who nominated you , write about his blog too.
 • Display the award on your blog.
 • Nominate 5 or 10 blogs which you feel deserve it.
 • Let the nominees know that you nominated them.
“Don’t forget to create 10 questions for them to answer. Notify your nominees and provide a link to your post so that they’ll know what to do. Once you’re done, come back here and comment with the link to your post so I can check out your answers.”

10 questions for nominees.

 1. Who or what makes you smile?

My family (children and fiancé)

 2. Who or what motivates you to write on your blog?

It keeps me positive, it’s like a release I need, so the support and comments keep me going.

 3. Would you die for the one you love?

Without a doubt.

 4. Do you believe in equality?

Yes. I don’t believe it exists yet as it should but I do believe we are all the same and should be treated the same.

 5. Would you rather hike a mountain or swim on a deep ocean?

Swim in a deep ocean 100%. I’ve always loved the water and I think the ocean is beautiful.

 6. 30 years from now, do you still see yourself blogging?

I do hope so. I think now I’ve found this I could never turn my back on it. The writing helps me it’s like self therapy and I need that to keep my mind strong and positive.

 7. If there’s a particular skill or talent that you want to have, what would it be and why?

I’d love to be able to sing. I don’t mean sing like Taylor swift I mean siiiiiiiiiiing with everything in my soul. That would be so good because I just imagine being home and that amazing voice singing to my family to really make them feel something. I would just love it. But currently my singing voice is disgusting!!  LOL

 8. Do you believe age doesn’t matter in love?

No I don’t agree entirely with this. Age differences are OK until it’s with somebody who knows nothing about your era and no interest in the same things due to that. I’d say 10years older might be doable but that would be the absolute max for me. This is just my opinion and as my fiancé is 3 years older and we share a lot of common interests and have experienced a lot of the same things. It just works, I couldn’t imagine being with somebody who I didn’t have that connection with.

 9. If there’s one place you want to visit, where? And what do you want to do on that place?

I’d love to visit the Barbados and surrounding areas. I would just love to have the experience of the culture there and be on the beautiful beaches that come with that.

 10. If you’re in the ‘golden magical mirror’ and you will talk to yourself, what are you going to tell to yourself?

You can do this. (This is referring to life. It’s hard with a chronic illness and kids, some days it really is a struggle. I have to always remind myself my kids need me, I can do it.)

My nominees are:

  • Uncertainty web
  • Dinosaursdonkeysandms
  • Positively Alyssa
  • Mrs. Ram Jam
  • Fibronacci
  • Nia
  • Invisibly  me 

10 questions for my nominees.

  • Why do you blog?
  • Who or what is you motivation?
  • Do you believe in Love at first sight?
  • What is your ultimate goal in life?
  • If you could recommend one thing, could be anything to someone what would it be?
  • What or where is your happy place?
  • What’s you favorite thing to watch on T.V (assuming you watch tv)
  • Would you rather watch a movie or read the book?
  • What is your favorite colour?
  • If you could be any animal/mammal what would you be and why?


Strangers, I don’t know you but strangers I need to thank you.

On this journey, although it’s hard, you have been there for all I share. It isn’t the best it’s just how I feel but the overwhelming support is getting me through.

Where are my friends? If they aren’t here now I may as well prepare myself, they won’t be here in the end.

But strangers you have changed my views because you have become more. No I don’t know you but I feel like I do, it’s me on this journey, but I feel like you are here too.

So strangers you might be but to me you are more, you are the sun on a cloudy day and you always keep the bad feelings away.

I want to thank you for the support and encouragement and I’ll stop trying to be a poet now, back to just me I guess. Blogging has literally helped so much I can’t describe. Those continuous supporters you are the best!!

Kim x x

A poem to somebody…

A poem to somebody…

Since I was a baby you were there. Now I see you sometimes but it’s like you don’t care.

Now I am a lady, a disabled one at that, I’ve become useless to you, you don’t even call for a chat.

I hate that you don’t want to know

I hate that you were special to me

I hate that you think it’s all a show

I hate that this is now how it has to be

But with all that hate I still need to thank you

You made me strong, you made me see. Not everyone will get it but that is fine, this disability won’t beat me.

Now I am positive and I am grateful.

Life won’t pass me by. I will keep my head up and all I will do is try.

I don’t need you. The good ones will stay. So I’ve written this to put you and your negativity away.

Kim x x

Wednesday’s wisdom

Wednesday’s wisdom

Mistakes– We are all human, every single one of us has made a mistake before and many of us will make a mistake again. Life is hard work, mistakes are bound to happen on this roller coaster called life.

The lesson we learn from our mistake is where the wisdom lies. 

Please remember mistakes are inevitable but the lesson is essential.

A person who continuously makes mistakes learns nothing. This person is happy to keep doing the same thing, mess up and possibly hurt people. I do not have time of these people.

In contrary there are people who make a mistake and regret it. They are truly sorry and they make sure you know that. These people have learnt and these people won’t make that mistake again. 

Mistakes are a lesson. It can be hard and it can feel crappy to make mistakes but this lesson will teach you so much. You will see things in a new perspective, you will learn empathy, understanding and these qualities will help you at a next hurdle you may have in life. On the other side of a mistake is often reality and sometimes we need a reality check and with a mistake this will come in the form of a lesson.

Don’t worry if you didn’t get straight A’s in school. Worry if you have become unable to learn from a mistake. If you are ok with hurting somebody more than once you really do need a reality check. You don’t have to be old to be wise. Your views on life, the lessons you have learnt, possessing certain qualities that keep you on the right path. These are things that will help you through a mistake. You are not too big or too cool to learn.

So next time you make a mistake admit you were wrong, then be prepared for a very important lesson. Learn from this lesson. Soon enough you won’t be making these mistakes.

Please have a good day and always be open to learning something new, it might be the lesson you need to get you where you should be right now.

Kim X X 

Blue Monday

Blue Monday

Here we are January 15th 2018 and it’s been calculated to be the most depressing Monday of the year. I have a few issues with this.

So a lot of us are broke after the Christmas season, many of us have failed already with our New Years resolutions and if you live in the UK the weather is a joke to be honest. But what I fail to understand is how this has become an official day, how somebody else can decide when a person is down. 
January is hard for many of us but we cannot be down because of factors that are trivial in the grand scheme of things. People are in dark places, people are suffering, people actually have to deal with a blue month/year/life so how inconsiderate isit to put this on people. 

Highlighting one day where we are all blue when this is not true, it just baffles me. Many people don’t know what being depressed even feels like. Today is just another day, you might have some issues as I mentioned before but please don’t include yourself in this Blue Monday nonsense if you are fine just a bit out of pocket. 

We need to keep positivity alive, some of us are suffering with pain everyday, some people are suffering from unimaginable pain in their lives so as I sit here and write I feel blessed. I am not rich, I do suffer from daily pain, I have daily struggles but I have a roof over my head, I have food in my house and a beautiful family and this to me means everything. Now take a moment and think about those who don’t have this in their lives. These people are blue and it’s our job to help in some way.

Chronic illness can be a depressing thought but we have control of our thoughts. The way I look at it is yes things can be bad but things really could be a lot worse. I am not in a position to feel anything but positivity now. Bad has come my way with MS, my 17 year old brother has Leukemia. It’s hard but that’s why I know if I’ve got this then you can too. Your mindset is what’s going to get you through the struggles and just remember that. 

So enjoy the rest of January, you don’t need money to spend time with somebody who makes you happy, you do not need to wait until next year to make yourself a better you and the weather will be better in a few months (no guarantee in England!) But even if it’s not it’s not even the worse. 

Keep It Mindful and it’s going to keep you in the right place. Anyway I like blue so this Monday won’t be getting me.

Happy Monday, Kim x x